Brain Wave Hash

Well this post is just a whole mish-mash of thoughts that I would like to get out of my head...so I guess I'll put it in your's. I've just beening thinkin' lately about my life, how it's changed, what's made it change, how I can shange it for the better, where am I headed, that kinda stuff. Well, firstly I'm head to the mission field. Don't know where, I kinda always though south-east asia. recently I read alot of stuff about Jim Elliot, the man involved with Operation Auca. he has been such an encouragement to me, should me alot of stuff in my life that I can change, his life challenged mine. I read his biography wrtien my his wife, I read Thought the Gates of Splendor, also written by his wife, saw the movie too. It just really challanged me to what type of missions I feel called to. I alwayed asumed that I would just be a pastor in a foreign country, but now I have opened myself up to what ever God has for me, wether it be orphans in the jungles of Equador, or pastoral in Thialand. I am open to that which me has called me. Actually right now I'm trying to spend the next year in Peru, an 11-month intership/college. Don't think it will work out, but I'm trying to do it. It would be an amazing experience. To not just visit a foreign country, but to live there, to serve there. Right now, I just need to be open to God's leading. Hmmm...what else? Have you ever had a freind...or more then a friend, and then realize that they are more happy without you in thier life that when you were in it? Especially when you were more happy when they were in your life?? Well that kinda struck me today, not a pleasant pill to swallow, but I just have to realize that there is someone out there that will be moer happy with me in thier lives. Talked to an old friend last night for an hour or so. it was great encouragement. It made me regret not hanging around with him more in high school, looking back he was one of the few true Christians I knew...many were Christians by name and association, but few lived it. Hats off to you Kellen. Well I think thats enough ranting for a night...talk to ya'll later>